The long awaited graduation

Hi Dearest People Who Give A Damn,


It has been 1 year and 1 month since I started the secretary school. It has been 4 weeks since I claimed done and tomorrow is the big day! Graduation. I will be graduating the REA-College and be a secretary, you know, one in a mini skirt, under the boss' desk.  So, I'm pretty nervous. Though there is no need ofcourse. I have passed it. Aced it. Done it all and can go to work for the rest of my misarble life. Not that I dislike the place where I have my work-experience, it's just that I wish I could do what I love, which is writing. But that's an offtopic subject I might discuss later. Tomorrow is the big day. At least I don't need to wear a cloack and hat. Although my dad mentioned to me the other day, and I quote: "You sure as hell would look like a smart wizard."


So, tomorrow, I will be one step closer to becoming rich - or at least an adult.


Love,


Aledawn

My 'small' to-do-list

At the point of typing it's been over 2 am in the frickin' morning and no, I can't sleep. I am not even planning on sleeping just getting some rest. My television is showing Teen Nick which on it's own isn't a bad thing. But I cannot stand they rerun everything. I wanted to watch the Titanic, but then again, we wanted to watch it in Theaters soon. So that makes my to-do-list. Shall I summon it up for you..

• Rearrange a time for The Hunger Games in theater with my friend Debby
• Help my mother who is getting surgery in the morning
• Do some serious shopping -  Jeans for Dave, Bag, Shirt, Hygiene products and a gift for my mother
• Arrange the Titanic Theater Trip or TTT for short
• Go and do my work-experience
• Take a test to finish my school
• Arrange my graduation outfit
• Try to be happy

Love,

Aledawn

Three new pairs of shoes - Glee and the meeting

Today, the fifth of December - my very good friend C. gave me three pairs of shoes. It's so sweet of her - though she wore them a few times, I can't say no to good shoes that fit me. Awesome that we have the same shoe size... I totally love them - the shoes - I'm wondering what Dave thinks about them - the shoes - and about the fantastic gift of my friend C. 


I promised to 'babysit' her dog, Freddie, next Saturday. Not really looking forward to it -but a promise is a promise. I'm currently on the way to watch the season final of Glee season 2. Tomorrow at 8.30 pm starts season 3 of Glee on our national cable station.


I also just heard my to be 'mother-in-law' is coming to school for a conversation with Dave and some people - SCARY! seriously, it's terrifying me. Especially for me, seeing as they need to be there by about 8.30 and usually i'm at school at about 8 pm - I can't skip school and Dave promised me I would meet her - yeah - not really - as I said before - SCARY! TERRIFYING!  HORRIBLE! For me it would be like a horror movie nightmare where you find you can't run - you can't hide and the only thing you have to do is stick through it, until the very end. 

The Smell Of Joy

Life as I knew it totally changed. I found myself being gloating with happiness and joy. I would wake up in the morning, early, and ready for school. I am getting amazingly good grades. Which is amazing, even for me. I mean, especially for me. I usually fail in almost everything, most of the time, lagging behind in school work. Still I would wish that I would get some of my inspiration back. It sucks not to be able to have good dreams and write about them. Most of the time now, I would be to tired to dream - as is normal for me - and when I go to bed, I fall asleep at once. Actually, because everything goes so well, I have little to mention. I got the new Nightwish album - I love it! Also i'm trying to concentrate on Harry Potter a little more, just to write some fan fiction. Or to continue Dark Star. But as I mentioned above, it just does not work. 

Love, Aledawn.

P.s. Information about my Boyfriend is behind the break!

For better and for the other thing I can't recall

So, to be honest - I feel kinda good about myself. Shock! I have no idea where this sudden shift of feelings came from. I do feel lonely all the time - and I have these horrible nightmare's about the most horrible things. But still, I feel good about myself. I think it may have something to do with the fact that I stopped caring about stuff. I don't care that I feel unloved by my 'boyfriend' and I do not care that I probably failed at school. No, that's not true. I care to much about those things - It might be the reason that I started regular periods of sports. I know what I want with my life at this point! I want to be married and have children. I know that for sure.

Oh, I'm babbling again. See this is what happens when I have nothing of interest to tell. I start to babble.

How life flips

Have you ever wondered why life is like this? One time your happy - other times you feel like bursting into tears, staying home underneath the covers. RUN AWAY FROM THAT. Or atleast we try, don't we. We try and try and try even harder. But it doesn't work. It feels like years or maybe even decades before we feel happy. Before we can move on. But that's not my point. You need to move on. Not for you - but do it for others. So try your best - and keep on breathing - even when you do excersise -  The world is not without heart-ache and heart-ache seems to be healty for you. I do doubt it. But seeing as I am not sure if I am the expert on this subject I cannot tell you. 

I am also busy on my newly bought Wii Fit Plus. And the Yoga is very difficult. But I try and try untill I fall.

And then a some new recomandations for you.

Music: Indica - A Way Away and Ambeon - Fate of a Dreamer
Books: The Fallen Series by Lauren Kate - the Demonata Series by Darren Shan - The Vampire Series by Darren Shan 
Movies: Tangled - Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 1
Games: Wii Fit Plus for the Wii and ofcourse Pokémon Black and White (Which I do not have and probably will not get until somewhere in April.)

Happiness and Loneliness.

So - I passed the last test for my school. This means I will get my Diploma on the 6th of july. So in that roll of thought I am really happy. But on the other roll of thoughts i'm quite un-happy, not for any mortal reason. I have everything I want. But still I feel like i'm being sucked up by loneliness and depression. But nothing much I can do.

I was thinking about writing a new story again, but the inspiration is held dry. So no new stories for me.

Almost forgot; I bought a few new books on Ebay and the first season of True Blood on DVD. Still waiting for three books and the DVD. Allready got five of them. And I recieved the Decended EP. It sounds great.

Current mood: Happy but Lonely
Current Audiobook: All Together Dead - Sookie Stackhouse by Charlaine Harris.

Bye - for now!