Love Sick Song Lyrics

Dear readers,

Can you recall the last time I was this annoyed with myself..? I do! Lyrics underneath are from the awesome band Nightwish

The Smell Of Joy

Life as I knew it totally changed. I found myself being gloating with happiness and joy. I would wake up in the morning, early, and ready for school. I am getting amazingly good grades. Which is amazing, even for me. I mean, especially for me. I usually fail in almost everything, most of the time, lagging behind in school work. Still I would wish that I would get some of my inspiration back. It sucks not to be able to have good dreams and write about them. Most of the time now, I would be to tired to dream - as is normal for me - and when I go to bed, I fall asleep at once. Actually, because everything goes so well, I have little to mention. I got the new Nightwish album - I love it! Also i'm trying to concentrate on Harry Potter a little more, just to write some fan fiction. Or to continue Dark Star. But as I mentioned above, it just does not work. 

Love, Aledawn.

P.s. Information about my Boyfriend is behind the break!

The Tuomas Problem

What a weird title, I know, but before you make any assumptions, let me try to explain.


First, everyone who knows me - or even a little about me, knows that Tuomas Holopainen from the Finnish metal band Nightwish is one of my absolute idols (note: I adore him in a really selfish way - fan-girlish even.) I mean just look at him. 

But except the good looks and except the fact that he is a famous musician (fame attracts, no matter how you look or what kind of personality you have. )


I feel that, in a strange, weird way, we could have some connection on an astral way. I do not know him, in a personal way. So that says enough. But to get back to the original subject. 


This is the problem, in a way, Tuomas has always been my ideal image of what my husband should be. How my future husband should be. And this is where the problem starts. 


I have created these standards. And every man I ever dated falls out of those standards. Maybe except Aron. He came pretty close to the 'Tuomas Standards'. 


I feel there is this gap between my deepest wish and between the reality. It would be the end of the world if I would find a man who fits the 'Tuomas Standards'.  Simply because the only man who could/would fit those standards is Tuomas Holopainen himself. To be honest, I fear this is one thing I might never get. No matter how badly I want it. 


We will see what to do about these standards. I will figure something out. Maybe I should pick 4 from Tuomas and place them with another man. Hopefully he can, at least have 4, standards.


So, I will live my life until the solution hits me - like thunder and rain.


Love,


Aledawn