F~U - The reason why I can't sleep

Dear Readers,


I am shouting F~U to my nightmares. They keep increasing. I totally hate it. It makes me drowsy on a different level. I just wish my mind could take a break. I am so totally tired, but to afraid to sleep. I did a lot of things to try this out. I am going to try some sleeping tea for a better night. But I have to admit I still need to buy it.


Gonna try to sleep again, so nighty night!


Love,


Aledawn

My 'small' to-do-list

At the point of typing it's been over 2 am in the frickin' morning and no, I can't sleep. I am not even planning on sleeping just getting some rest. My television is showing Teen Nick which on it's own isn't a bad thing. But I cannot stand they rerun everything. I wanted to watch the Titanic, but then again, we wanted to watch it in Theaters soon. So that makes my to-do-list. Shall I summon it up for you..

• Rearrange a time for The Hunger Games in theater with my friend Debby
• Help my mother who is getting surgery in the morning
• Do some serious shopping -  Jeans for Dave, Bag, Shirt, Hygiene products and a gift for my mother
• Arrange the Titanic Theater Trip or TTT for short
• Go and do my work-experience
• Take a test to finish my school
• Arrange my graduation outfit
• Try to be happy

Love,

Aledawn

Tired to the bones

I don't know if it's because I'm ill, or if it's because I slept badly for the past few days. But i'm tired to the bones. It's 20.25 while I write this and I wish so badly I could go to bed. Just sleep and do nothing more. I guess I go now.

Love,

Aledawn

The Smell Of Joy

Life as I knew it totally changed. I found myself being gloating with happiness and joy. I would wake up in the morning, early, and ready for school. I am getting amazingly good grades. Which is amazing, even for me. I mean, especially for me. I usually fail in almost everything, most of the time, lagging behind in school work. Still I would wish that I would get some of my inspiration back. It sucks not to be able to have good dreams and write about them. Most of the time now, I would be to tired to dream - as is normal for me - and when I go to bed, I fall asleep at once. Actually, because everything goes so well, I have little to mention. I got the new Nightwish album - I love it! Also i'm trying to concentrate on Harry Potter a little more, just to write some fan fiction. Or to continue Dark Star. But as I mentioned above, it just does not work. 

Love, Aledawn.

P.s. Information about my Boyfriend is behind the break!

The Death of Innocence

I've been busy alright - though sometimes I feel like I might be used for things - babysit my children, babysit my dog. Buy me diner - etc. But no more. This is the end of it! No more innocent little miss nice. I'm gonna be honest about my feelings, so I painted my nails black and watch True Blood with a bucket of Ben and Jerry's Cookie Dough. And after that, I'll fall asleep with an empty feeling of loneliness. It's wonderful - especially when I know i'm gonna have the half day of tomorrow!

Way to long - to little to tell you

OMG, I'm so so sorry. I've had you waiting for a while now.. But since there is not much to tell - there really is no need for my crying. So the highlights and deeppoints of my life since I last wrote to you:

• I bought a new iPod - It's a classic
• I bought the Sims 3 Late Night - Awesome
• I went to Germany to buy Coca-Cola Vanille - but it was sold out.
• I went to town with my friend, Harm-Jan, and bought for 80 euro's worth of clothing
• I am spending time with my friends
• I have great contact with my neighbour, Clau.
• I got addicted to Monster High, Charmed and Vampire Kisses series
• I have summer vacation, which is amlost over 

So I guess that was it..

Love,

Aledawn

Sleeping in the rain.

I slept. A new sensation. I really slept. Without the dreams. Without the nightmares. It was wonderful. I used Sounds of the Earth: Thunderstorm, and I slept. The sound of the rain and thunder, without the cold. Laying underneath the blankets and listening, to my opinion the best sound nature can produce, rain. I used to sleep on the attic, so when it rained I would sleep like a rosebud. But since I moved to the big city, I never hear the rain. Which is nasty, because whenever I fancy a walk, and it just so happens to rain, I got soaked before I noticed. And it's bad because I can't hear the rain for sleep or meditation. Sometimes I do. But then it's early morning, when everyone else is asleep.


Well I'm putting it to the test again, tonight.


Love,


Aledawn