The Death of Innocence

I've been busy alright - though sometimes I feel like I might be used for things - babysit my children, babysit my dog. Buy me diner - etc. But no more. This is the end of it! No more innocent little miss nice. I'm gonna be honest about my feelings, so I painted my nails black and watch True Blood with a bucket of Ben and Jerry's Cookie Dough. And after that, I'll fall asleep with an empty feeling of loneliness. It's wonderful - especially when I know i'm gonna have the half day of tomorrow!

Way to long - to little to tell you

OMG, I'm so so sorry. I've had you waiting for a while now.. But since there is not much to tell - there really is no need for my crying. So the highlights and deeppoints of my life since I last wrote to you:

• I bought a new iPod - It's a classic
• I bought the Sims 3 Late Night - Awesome
• I went to Germany to buy Coca-Cola Vanille - but it was sold out.
• I went to town with my friend, Harm-Jan, and bought for 80 euro's worth of clothing
• I am spending time with my friends
• I have great contact with my neighbour, Clau.
• I got addicted to Monster High, Charmed and Vampire Kisses series
• I have summer vacation, which is amlost over 

So I guess that was it..

Love,

Aledawn

Keeping a diary

Hello readers,

I am thinking to keep up a diary. So I can write down all the secrets I can't share with you.. But I'm still figuring some things out.. Like, a name for my Diary (I name almost everything) and a form. I was thinking to do it on my laptop and then print it out every month or weak - if the paper get's to much, then put it in a book. Much to figure out, to little time...

Love,

Aledawn

Changes

My life has changed. Not only did I had a fight with my "ex-"boyfriend, I got a new tattoo and I'm on medication. First things first, the fight - the big one.


On Friday night, I called him. He could not come, could not talk and had to much on his mind to be involved with me. I gave him a choice: Love me or Leave me. He said he wanted to think about it, but I figured he left me. I figured this, since it's Monday and he still did not call. I'm afraid to call, no, not afraid. Stubborn. I won't call him, it his choice. 


Second: I got a new tattoo, it's a star on my right wrist, more on the right side - it's not really centered. But I love it. 


And third; I'm on my old medication, which makes me sleep the entire night - it should help with the depressions :). We'll figure it out.  

Passion and the Package

I finally got two things I've been waiting for, for a long time. I've gotten the package from Attitude Holland today. I've been really excited to have it. I also got the adiobook Passion by Lauren Kate today. I'm very excited. Keeping it short though..

Love,

Aledawn

The package that will never come

Curse, curse, curse and i'll curse some more. Why does the post only come when i'm away. I keep missing it. My package can now be picked up - but how the hell do they want me to go there.. walking? I need to find a way and need to do it soon. Tomorrow, after school perhaps. I have to. There is absolutely no other way. So, I just called, and I can pick it up tomorrow. Dang - I need to go after school, then. 


Love,


Aledawn

Sleeping in the rain.

I slept. A new sensation. I really slept. Without the dreams. Without the nightmares. It was wonderful. I used Sounds of the Earth: Thunderstorm, and I slept. The sound of the rain and thunder, without the cold. Laying underneath the blankets and listening, to my opinion the best sound nature can produce, rain. I used to sleep on the attic, so when it rained I would sleep like a rosebud. But since I moved to the big city, I never hear the rain. Which is nasty, because whenever I fancy a walk, and it just so happens to rain, I got soaked before I noticed. And it's bad because I can't hear the rain for sleep or meditation. Sometimes I do. But then it's early morning, when everyone else is asleep.


Well I'm putting it to the test again, tonight.


Love,


Aledawn