No No No! I Can't Believe It

I think I might be upset for all the wrong reasons. Good thing I only have to work for another 20 minutes or else I might have gone home.

I know this is none of my business, but still. How could you! I am so mad, it's like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. But I am so naive, thinking I can have it all.

So, now what do we do? Sit  and cry? Or make a new plan - a better plan.

How about we do the last thing, so that I can be happy again. So that I can say to those who have hurt me; "Look at this, see what I did and where it got me".

But one thing is for sure! I need a vaccation - very soon.

I am so willingly upsetting myself. I cannot believe I thought I had a chance of love with you. I can't even keep silent about it.  The only good part is that it was expected, though unwillingly, it was something I held in the back of my mind. Way way back - where it could not hurt me.

Love,

Aledawn